I've been having YWAM on my heart again lately. It's there and I can't ignore it. But it's difficult, because there are so many aspects to figure out and it's hard discerning what and where God wants me. I know that if I chose to finish school and then do YWAM God would work through that. OR, if I chose to do YWAM after this school year and then finished school...God could work through that. It's just that my faith seems to be all over the place these days. I am far from consistent in my walk and that's frustrating. I don't know what I want to do with my life. I am in that process of seeking direction. CU is getting small and it's hard for me to justify living here and my lifestyle and all that jazz.
And so, I shall resume covering this in prayer.
This weekend is the last weekend I work at Panera. PRAISE GOD! Saturday I have a silent retreat. And Wednesday I'll be home for Christmas! Just like the song! :)
If I have experienced anything this week it's that God is a God of mercy and love. So cliche, but true. I make these awful mistakes and I sin and am selfish and yet God is still intensely in love with me. He yearns for me. He wants me. He still blesses me and speaks and uses. Someway. Somehow. I will never understand that. Ever ever ever.
That's all for today. Busy busy busy day ahead of me.
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