Aspirations of the Mind

There is this person in my life. This person is a man. This man and I were friends this summer and now we aren't. We've had our ups and downs. More downs than ups unforutantely.

This whole post is going to be what I would tell him if I could. Except it would be really mean, so I am going to write it here instead.

This man drives me crazy. I need to let go of him and move on. seriously. But, a part of me can't, because my mind roams back to the summer nights of long conversations over coffee. I miss those times. I miss the genuineness. I want those times back. And, he won't give them to me. He pushes me aside while he deals with the rest of his life. I am not longer someone important in his life. I am just a person. and that stings. a lot.

So, he's my brother in Christ. I am called to love him and serve him as Christ does. But I can tell you right now that he's not worth it. Not worth the pain. Not worth my time. Not worth the energy or anxiety.

And that's that.