And throw off the sin that so easily entangles you.

It is unbelievable how fast you get sucked into the world's ways. The last month I gave up Facebook. It was SO good for me,and then yesterday I put it back up. You all have no idea how badly I just want it to disappear, but I justify everything.

Recently, I've chosen to take a season to focus on God and remain in that consistency. I want this to be a catalyst for the rest of my life. You have no idea how badly I want to be content. Content with who I am. Content with being single. I long to let go completely.

You have no idea how much I tend to get sucked into gossip and drama. I hate it. I despise it. I feel the Spirit convicting and I don't choose LIFE. I choose death. I choose to talk about others and judge them.

I give so much time to watching TV and being on the internet. I want to let all these things go. But something holds me back.

You have no idea how much I want the chains in my heart to fall off. I SO want to walk in the FREEDOM of CHRIST.

I long for my pride to be put to death, so the love of Christ can flow through me. I want to explode, but I am so brought down by the world.

I can relate to Paul. He says" For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate."

I hate what I do. Yet, I do it anyway. Sometimes it seems just as easy to move to Africa with only the clothes on your back and your faith. Yet I am called here. To Cornerstone University for such a time as this. Maybe this is the safe place to try new things, to let things go, to die to the flesh.

it's not that it's a terrible travesty to watch TV once in a while or have a Facebook, but when it consumes you, then we have a problem. These things are used for the glory of God, but for me focus is hard. In order to truly focus on the Lord, I believe I need to kill some things in my life.

It's kind of exciting being on this journey. It's fun. I'm sure some of you think I'm crazy, and maybe i am. But I, and a few other people in the world, can attest that another world is possible. They would tell you that following Christ is the most fulfilling thing. It is good to follow Christ...obviously...or else I wouldn't waste time figuring out my life and getting on my knees every day.

I've figured out that following Christ is worth it. I really have. The thing I'm struggling with is how? How does one genuinely follow Christ as a college student? It truly is a journey let me tell you. But it's so good!!!!!!!

It's hard sometimes being at Cornerstone. It's hard being here today. Today I want to be downtown, riding the bus, floating around town meeting interesting people. Loving on people who are lost. I do not want to be in philosophy.

it's hard being in a bubble, but then maybe this is God's way of saying, "Lauren, it's not the time yet. I have work to do in you." And God would be right.

This is long. I still have 27 minutes in Philosophy. I should probably listen.

And so, I will leave you with this...

"Do not be conformed to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of you mind."