Aspirations of the Mind

It's sad how busy my life has gotten. And not just sad, but exhausting in a lot of ways. On the way to work this morning I actually turned down the radio and spent time talking to God. Bascially, I asked God to give me the strength to say "no," and grace to give up things next semester that clutter my life. I am not so sure God ever meant for us to work our butts off everyday. I was thinking tonight about the people I know who are always working. How tired they must get. How passionless and old life must get.

I don't want to go through my days checking things off my schedule in hopes for a well rounded resume and a great job. I want to enjoy life to the fullest. I want to stop in the middle of a hectic day and paint. I want to come home on the weekends after work and bake some tasty treats. I want to have time to actually sit down and talk to friends. I want to take time everyday to actually be in the Word and talk to God. I also want to do well in my leaderships positions. I also want to do well in school. I hate rushing through things!

Really, all I want is JOY back. Being happy is so fleeting. JOY is real and genuine. Maybe what I am going through is in fact a desert season. Whatever is going on I have to keep pressing on. I'm in this race and I want to win the Prize.

God, fill my life with copious amounts of Your joy, or your love, of your grace! You are so good God. I am so blessed! You are so faithful and majestic and so wonderfully powerful! Thank you for these challenges. Thank you for picking us up when we fail and makes huge mistakes and hurt people and hurt ourselves. Thank you for being there Jesus to hold our hand and walk through these valley's with us. You are so lovely. You are so good.

I love you.

Your Daughter,

Lauren

"Cast ALL of your burdens on Him because He cares for you!"