The Groaning of Creation

Today, this afternoon, as I sit in our green chair by the window reading Shane Claiborne's, "Irresistible Revolution" my spirit can't help, but groan. I can feel it. My soul is thirsty for that other world. I can't put my feeling into words. Every time I open up that book I feel it in me. A world that isn't here. A world that is built on community and the love of Christ. It's as if my spirit is crying out, "THIS IS NOT HOW IT"S SUPPOSED TO BE!"

It's not. My world is so wrong. It is so right side up. My spirit longs to be up side down. There is this unexplainable fire in my soul that needs to start living. That needs to start breathing and going. To quit talking for once! I don't need to be some famous speaker or some loud evangelical. I just want to be a world-changer for Jesus. I want to live like Jesus lived. I long to live among the poor and become lower than them. I long to serve them and love them. Not to gain approval of others or show off. It is because my spirit knows this is not "it." I know that the system is distorted and the American Empire of consumerism is messed up. I know and believe that Jesus has this huge heart for the least of these. When and how did we get this way? I just know that another world is in fact possible. I suppose nothing will change until people like you and me get out of our comfort zones and our ridiculous large houses and start being Jesus for once. No change will happen until we denounce the system.

My eyes have become blinded by the wealth and opportunity and privilege. It's time I figure out how to get out of this empire and this system.