This last weekend was SO freeing in a sense. I still have things to work through, but progress has been made and God continues to refine me. I won't give every detail, but a few that stick out.
- Last Friday I ventured home after a long, depressing, tough week. I spent a wonderful afternoon alongside my mom, baking and spilling my heart out to her. It was so good. We spent a great amount of time rehashing the really good things that were going on in my life and the lives of friends and family.
-I went to Kava House and listened to some of the webstream for IHOP. I really believe it was from God, because what happened Friday night was completely awesome! After Kava House I was like, "it may be possible that God has something for me tonight through IHOP." God did. I went home and cleaned and listened to it. The first hour or so they were doing healings and really praying for the Spirit to intercede on behalf of people and their physical downfalls...if that's the right phrase. And, so there I am cleaning away when all of a sudden I hear them praying about the whole issue of identity in Christ and they start praying that the confusion would stop. At that moment I felt SOOOOO free. Like I actually was accepted and loved by Christ. I felt free from my past, from guys, from my present circumstances. It was glorious! I prayed and was on my knees and worshiped our God. He is SOO good and worthy to be praised!
-Church Sunday morning was awesome! I experienced God and a renewal of my heart.
-Evensong. So good! A man from India came. And he and his wife shared their story of how they got to where they are. This is weird, but they talked a little about how they had met and their marriage and it was encouraging. I really felt the presence of God around me. He was like, "Lauren stop worrying. I've got this. I know the desires of your heart. I will be attentive to them."
-This week has not been dramatic and nothing obscure happened, but I've kept running this race. I've kept going. God is moving and it's beautiful. Not just in my life either, but in my friends and families lives. I love it! I love it so much! I've messed up plenty, but God is our Redeemer. He redeems. He brings the beauty from pain. He sews color into the tapestry of our lives.
Boy oh boy! I'm growing for once, and there is this amazing steadiness to it. I can't imagine where I'll be and who I'll be ten years from now.
Boy oh boy! I'm growing for once, and there is this amazing steadiness to it. I can't imagine where I'll be and who I'll be ten years from now.
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