It is for Freedom.

This week has been SO productive and beautiful. It has been a week of healing, surrender, and peace. My heart has felt pain in places I didn't know were there. I have cried many tears. It has been a week of learning, immense growth, and God. This week has been one of the BEST and one of the HARDEST...in a good way though!

The thing I continually have to work on is that of FOCUS. I've never been one to focus. Growing up I succeeded at running around on the playground. Playing tag in gym class, multi-tasking. I didn't do so well in the context of a class room. I've never been one for focus. It's hard. It's almost as if you have to want and desire something so much, and that in itself helps you focus. That to say, I have to keep going back to the Lord. He is my stronghold, my support, my peace, my strength. My eyes have wandered off and when they do God gently brings them back to focus on His face. His glorious face!

Letting go is hard. That's nothing new. I've stated this concept before. Surrender is not easy. My human nature thinks hanging on to money and worrying over what I look like and what guy likes me and everything else that vies for my attention...my humanness believes hanging onto things and people is what will save me. It's been a battle against flesh and spirit. I'm learning to let go of things in my life that are unhealthy. God has brought to the surface mindsets and assumptions that are deceiving. This refining process hurts, but it is SO spectacularly beautiful! This is only the beginning! God's love never ends. God never ends. I'm SOOOOO excited to see how God continues moving in me.

"Draw near to God and He will draw near to you."

It's true. It's real. It's genuine.

The author of James wrote this as a statement. An unwavering statement. When we seek the Lord and draw near to Him, He draws near to us. It's beautiful!!!!!!!!!!! I have never felt the presence of God as much as I have this week. In the painful moments and joyful ones!

Don't think I'm there yet. Never will be until the glorious day we are united with Christ. This is a tiny fraction of how God is working and moving in my heart. This is a tiny part of the journey I'm on.

God has not just been evident in that aspect of life, but also in the area of academics. I LOVE MY CLASSES. All of them! They are SO interesting and that's all I'm going to say.

Anyways, God is on the move. I'm excited to see what He is going to do in my life tomorrow.

Until next time...